Good night's sleep, that's what I needed. But nothing's changed. I'm still here, still uncertain, still in... him... Gotta figure out what to do. Help Mom? Definitely could, from this side. But she's still where she was when I left. Nothing moved, nothing changed. She'll still be there until someone writes different... I could stay here, check out this world...
id rater u didnt
Oh, great, here's the Almighty and Powerful Author. Gimme a sec to hammer him into the dirt, will ya?
plese dnt... want to talk...
Cute, this is where you tell me the errors of my ways and give yourself some justification? Let's not and saaafejjjge
hurtz, ddnt it?
Okay, never expected you to punch yourself in the balls, but granted, that did hurt. Really really hurt.
so many tings you don't know about our world... i just wish to talk with you.
Alright, talk. What the hell do you guys get out of hurting us so much? Is that how you get your jollies?
not directly... i enjoy seeing you overcome the pain, grow stronger getting over the barriers...
Nice variation on Tough Love there.
cant just say you get stronger... no proof... no test... without one, there is no other... what would life be if we wrote "good guys win' over and over...
Peacefull?
stagnant, boring
Fuck you. You just said you get off causing pain.
not cause. effect. the ends do not justify means, but there are nnnnoooo other means to that end.
You could just
study? exercise? train? with no test? no proof of growth? remember the matrix?
The movie? Yeah, guess you could call it a parallel, but we can't just jump in and out like you can... Till now, anyways.
morpheous torture... that agent.
Okay, he was going on an on about how he hated humans...
said humans are defined by pain... almost right. he didnt think it all the way through. we are defined by the pain we face, that we overcome, and how we do it. and what pain we run away from...
I suppose now you're going to claim I'm just running away from pain? Is that it?
dont know. only you know.
You write it, I do it.
until we write it, we do not know.
And right now, with me in the driver's seat, you Can't know, can you?
admited.
This whole Meta thing's interesting, but still doesn't answer...
what you should do? go home, submit yourself to our whims, or stay here and fix everything the way you like?
Put like that, staying here's looking pretty good.
want another punch in the balls?
Uh...
being here is no fun. why do you think we write? for me, i cannot face the pain laid out for me. i do not have the strength to even try. so i write. i write others facing their pain, and coming out better for it. because i cannot do the same. my body is weak and ugly, my mind is small and hateful. all you will find staying here is a life filled with much more mundane pain.
But...
my avatar is not me. he is what i wish i was.
Trying to scare me off, aren't you?
it'd scare me off. but i'm kinda stuck here. you can choose to stay, or to go... a thought: you need not go right back to where you were...
Not go back into the Addventure?
go to another author. get second opinion.
Great, you just dump me off on someone else, make me their problem, huh?
anna, you are not a problem. you are unique. but you still must make a decision. stay here and write, go back where you were, or find another author to speak with.
Trying to force me into making the choice you want, aren't you? Trying to shove me away so you can have your life back.
you really want it that bad? can you manage with sex once a decade?
........er....... have a nice flight.
..... This doesn't change anything. I'm just leaving because it's what I choose to do.
only one who could choose.
Right. Don't you forget that. I'll just go find some other Author to take over.
probably a few who'd like to talk with you.
Whatever. I'm outta here.
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